Re-member Your Self
*Image descriptions listed at the bottom of the page
You are multitudinous (numerous; consisting of many individuals/elements; vast). Those of you who have worked with me in the past 2 years especially understand this. Comedians, actors, performance artists, and damn do tik-tok-ers understand this. (Also, anyone with prominent Gemini placements understands this; it me—Gemini moon.) But perhaps the concept is too often an abstraction. How often do you allow yourself to FEEL it? What stories do you write about those parts? Are they kind? Are they honest? Do they leave room for grace? Or even humor?
Allow your self to re-member its self. Re-member your cells. Your mind, body and spirit does not deserve to live divided against itself as it was taught to. “I just feel so scattered.” Of course you do. That’s what was modeled for us: rejecting and exiling the invalidated parts of ourselves until we are fragmented, confused, disregulated and burnt out. I get it.
But our collective awareness is moving beyond the binary of masculine/feminine, pride/shame, good/bad, black/white, light/shadow. Even within art and design the gradient is trending. Perhaps this is a premonition of the diffusion of the divide that at this moment often manifests as blurring of our consensus realities because moving out of the binary is disorienting when it’s all you’ve known. That's why with hypnotherapy there is emphasis on familiarizing yourself with the states you'd rather feel. The ones you're being given the opportunity to consent to, rather than the ones you internalized as a child.
As within, so without, and just as with the collective, what heals the individual is getting curious and compassionate about our exiled parts and asking what needs they’re trying to get met. Gather your self. And know that just as the “top” 1-5% of society is not going to heal us, neither will the “top” 1-5% of your (conscious) mind heal the 95-99% of your (subconscious) mind. We are far more powerful than we realize—we’ve just been demanding change from the least empowering part of ourselves.
Many of us were quite battered by 2020, especially by the unrelenting evidence of the above--that those we perceive as being the most resourced (billionaires, state & federal governments) are not going to create the change we've been demanding. And if they do, it's only gonna be a lil, it's going to come slow, and it's probably going to come with a catch. Which is usually how change within goes too when we're relying on our conscious rather than subconscious mind to create it.
I'm honoring you all for making it through this last year, and all of the years before. Happy is one of the feelings I wish for you in 2021. I wish for you all of the multitudinous feels, and the growing ability to create welcome, loving space for them. If you'd like my support with that, I currently have open spots available for 3 1:1 clients this month. Hmu to schedule a free consultation, or to schedule a session if you're a returning client.
Image descriptions from top to bottom:
1) Photo by Lois Cohen, Stylist Indiana Roma Voss for Vogue of a light-skinned person with long dark hair parted down the middle and face painted white with red lips, rosy cheeks and blackened eye lids. They wear hoop earrings, a choker necklace of large a glittering letters, a black suit with prominent shoulders, white socks and black and white checkered high heels. They’re seated powerfully on a stool with their hands resting in front of them on the top of a black cane with a prism-cut clear glass globe on top. Behind them is a display wall of many mannequin heads wearing various styles of wigs and ornate necklaces above a glass display case covered with a collage of laminated photographs of various people.
2) The Veiling by Bill Viola, what appears to be a row of large transparent cloths with similar but slightly varying images of a red rectangle in the center and what appears to be black silkscreened images of human figures in various poses, the installation photographed from an angle to show the images overlapping to create a variety of visual effects.
3) Photo by Bailey Skye of a light-brown skinned person in a black turtleneck and short, black hair with a blonde streak that is gelled into waves across their forehead. They wear small, dangly silver earrings with blue stones. Their face is painted with a large red circle on their forehead and upper nose and eye balls of various sizes painted around their forehead and under their eyes, and their lipstick is black. Their brown eyes are looking slightly upward, and the painted eyeballs mimic the same.
